My turning point day

by CynthiaYockey on February 5, 2013

Today was a turning point day. I only have a small stack of papers left to clear in my de-cluttering campaign. For the first time, I had a sense of an orderly sequence of projects that I needed to accomplish. For the first time, I was free of feelings of pain, confusion and mental and emotional pressure that being surrounded by the clutter of bills and notes and flyers gave me when I sat down to work. For the first time, I was enthusiastic and happy about sitting down to work at my computer.

And after handling several chores, I was easily able to clear another blocker that had been frustrating and frightening me. To take this blog where I want it to go in the next few months, I have to upgrade to the current versions of WordPress and the Thesis framework. I was nervous about upgrading WordPress because a couple of years ago I upgraded it without backing up my blog first and it corrupted my database. So the first step was to ensure I had back-ups from my back-up service and my web host (i.e., belt and suspenders). The next time I do this it will take no more than half an hour, but it took a couple of hours today to find my way through the process and sort out some little snafus that it was very lucky I discovered and resolved in time.

My success in upgrading WordPress made me brave enough to upload Thesis 2.0 and get most of the way through the process of copying the settings I have to move by hand. Thesis 2.0 handles the settings for a blog’s design very differently than the 1.x versions. So it may take a few days for me to get that figured out. But once I do, I’ll be free to make the additions I’m planning, which will be a dream come true.

What am I up to? These upgrades and transformations of my blog will make it possible for me to create a mastermind group of my dear gentle readers. The purpose of the group will be to demonstrate success in our own personal lives, cheer one another on and share our success stories in a way that demonstrates to progressives how conservative principles generate prosperity.

Stay tuned.

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Hubert P. Yockey (farthest left in the last row, wearing a sweater), with Berkeley Radiation Lab Director Ernest Lawrence (front row, center, sitting on railroad tie) and Associate Director, Donald Cooksey (on Lawrence's left), at the site of the 184-inch cyclotron in 1942. Dad just told me he's wearing jeans because he hiked up to the site.

Hubert P. Yockey (farthest left in the last row, wearing a sweater), with Berkeley Radiation Lab Director Ernest Lawrence (front row, center, sitting on railroad tie) and Associate Director Donald Cooksey (on Lawrence's left), at the site where Berkeley's 184-inch cyclotron was being built in 1942.

I’m finishing my clutter clearing and just came across a note I made in March 2008. My father, Hubert P. Yockey, became an experimental nuclear physicist at the University of California at Berkeley during World War II, studying under Robert Oppenheimer and Ernest Lawrence. (My parents met in Tennessee working on the Manhattan Project.)

Dad doesn’t tell a lot of stories about that time because the work was classified, but I think we were watching a documentary on Oppenheimer discussing his involvement with the Communist Party. This reminded Dad that one of Oppenheimer’s students was a fervent Communist. It wasn’t a crime, so he couldn’t be jailed. But his loyalties were in question and the fate of the world was hanging in the balance. It wouldn’t have taken much mischief in that program to tip the scales disastrously for the U.S. and the Allies.

So what did they do?

Dad said the local draft board solved the problem brilliantly. They drafted the student Communist in the Rad Lab and sent him to boot camp. When he completed boot camp, the Army flunked him and made him take it again, and again, and again, and so on, until the end of the war. As Dad said, “It was as good as prison.”

Related: Funny story from my father about the Berkeley Communists’ reaction to the 1939 Nazi-Soviet pact.

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Tulip poplar tree broken at its base and leaning on an oak.

My tree of Damocles, a tulip poplar broken at its base, which is being held up, for now, by a lightning-damaged oak tree.

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Clutter clearing home stretch

by CynthiaYockey on January 30, 2013

I apologize for the long lapse in posting. I wanted to post every day in 2013 on clearing blockers, which for the first five days of the year I did, although fairly close to midnight. So on January 6, around 11:40 pm, I tried to log in to write my daily post and discovered my web host was down. Well played, universe.

Instead of just picking up with my posting the next day, I adopted a “Screw it” attitude, which is a blocker. But I also buckled down on clearing the clutter in my work environment and finances. With some luck and a good night’s sleep, I’ll finish tomorrow. Then I have to put my father’s and my finances for 2012 into Quicken, write thank-you e-mails to everyone who has ever sent me a donation and do the Objective Process exercises recommended by Stuart Lichtman.

I’m also gathering the tools and creating the materials to create a conservative mastermind club for my dear gentle readers. If you can hit the tip jar, I would appreciate it and you will be helping it come into being faster. Thank you.

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Shredding sadness

by CynthiaYockey on January 5, 2013

Turning blockers into boosters, day 5: This morning I was enthusiastic about clearing clutter from the living room and den but had an instant change in my priorities when I found a flea on our cat, Polar Bear. One of my perennial blockers is the experience of an emergency, illness or even death of a loved one happening at exactly the time when I was happily about to do something for my own progress: so very, very “It’s a Wonderful Life,” where James Stewart has to deal with a crisis just as he was about to fulfill one of his own dreams. (By the way, I am aware that my loved ones do not die on purpose to thwart me or steal focus.)

Luckily, I remembered that in the extensive Q&A forum available to me as a graduate of Stuart Lichtman’s Super Achievement Coaching Program,* one of the questions was posed by a man having the same experience: something seemed to come out of the blue to torpedo his plans so often he was practically suicidal. Stuart walked him through using a process he describes in his e-book called the Base Reframe. So that was the process I should have reviewed and done today, but, um, the cats have been scatttering and tearing up those papers so the little table and work area I dedicated to that will take at least an hour to get organized and orderly again. That’s part of the de-cluttering I have planned for the next few days. The “torpedo out of the blue” blocker does make me despair, so I’m at least glad to know I have tools I can use to clear that pattern. It beats feeling helpless and hapless.

In the meantime, I was off the to vet for some Frontline. I cared for my father and did chores in the afternoon. In the evening when I finally got back to my de-cluttering project, I needed to clear a space on the bookshelves in my father’s office and found a stack of folders of old financial records. So I spent the evening trying to listen to a Downton Abbey marathon over the sound of a shredder. As I destroyed the documents with the intention of letting go of the past, I had the sense of shredding the sadness in them, and of clearing the way for achievements and prosperity.

I hope as I continue this project that I will be able to gather a group of dear gentle readers to be a mastermind group, sharing experiences and encouraging one another. I haven’t quite sorted out how to do that and would welcome reactions and suggestions.

*If the SACP is too pricey, I’ve also taken the Dream Achiever Program and it is excellent.

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The laundry room door revelation

by CynthiaYockey on January 4, 2013

Turning blockers into boosters, day 4: I didn’t do any blocker-transforming processes today. I figure the blocker to clear for that has to do with going to bed on time — I was up until 2 am reading conservative blogs, which meant I got up late and had trouble getting going. I spent most of the day doing errands.

But this evening I was able easily to do a project that I have been blocked on since I moved back home with my father over six years ago — chisel out bit of the laundry room door frame so I could move the latch hole and strike plate down 3/8 inch so the door will close. When my anxiety disorder had me totally in its grip, I’d have been too frightened to do this. But this week, I checked Google for advice and came up with a plan. I went to the local hardware store and was lucky enough to have a salesman guide me to wood epoxy instead of flimsy wood putty. I managed to do neat work with my chisels instead of the hack job I’d been afraid of doing. With overwhelming anxiety, this simple job was impossible for me. Without anxiety, it was easy and fun.

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Turning Blockers into Boosters, Day 3: I haven’t been getting my weatherproofing done as quickly as I wanted to, but I was pleased to notice that I’m doing the tasks quicker and with less effort than they would have taken me even a year ago. Part of this is due to my weight loss, improved fitness and better sleep habits. As a result, I have more energy and clarity and much less pain. Well, prescription-strength ibuprofen helps with the pain, too. But I also credit a big reduction in my general anxiety level to completing three days of Maharishi Vedic Vibration treatments (MVVT) in September, thanks to the donations of my gentle readers. I had absolutely no idea how much my generalized anxiety disorder was crippling me until the fear that I was about to make a mistake and be brutally punished and a constant sense of pressure were no longer scattering my wits.

So instead of panicking all through the process of moving a table and boxes of papers in my father’s office so I could replace the plastic insulation over a large window, I just assessed what I had to do and then methodically did it. Well, after an hour of searching for tape and scissors that I didn’t put back in their proper place, a computer problem of an audio or video file that I could neither find nor figure out what was playing it, and trying to figure out if Ro-Ro really needed a trip to the veterinarian, which meant I didn’t start the project until there was barely enough time to get it done while I still had the sunlight to see whether I was doing it properly. (Ro-Ro got to see my favorite vet this evening and was prescribed the medicine she needs, if medicine will help her. She’s 18 and the vet said she’s in better shape now than last May when I adopted her, but if her kidneys are giving out, too, there’s nothing more I can do.)

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Environmental blockers

by CynthiaYockey on January 2, 2013

Turning Blockers into Boosters, Day 2: The textbook I recommend for readers joining me on this year-long quest to turn blockers into strengths defines blockers as “self-defeating habit patterns,” which generally were formed early in life but are not successful or appropriate for coping with adult challenges. Call these internal blockers.

However, there are external blockers, too. Environmental blockers include clutter, disorder, passageways that are blocked or narrowed and things that are broken. I’ve begun my blocker-transforming project by addressing environmental blockers. I started about a week ago with weatherproofing the house, which was drafty and cold. It was uncomfortable and the prospect of high heating bills was terrifying. Now the house is much warmer, so it’s more comfortable and I’m feeling less worried and more confident. I hope to finish tomorrow. Then I will tackle decluttering my work area, which will make it much easier to write, track our finances (my father’s and mine) and do the personal transformation exercises and goal-setting techniques in the textbook linked above.

To be able to go into more detail and write more satisfying posts, I’ll have to start writing much earlier in the day. Staying up past 10 pm makes me less happy and efficient the next day, so the habit of doing that is a blocker. So I have to go to bed now instead of writing more and trust that I’ll do better soon.

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Join me for a year of turning blockers into boosters

by CynthiaYockey on January 1, 2013

This year I’m committing to doing something every day to turn my blockers — self-defeating habits — into boosters: strengths that will support my success.

The framework I’m using comes from the work of Stuart Lichtman. Check him out here. I recommend his e-books and courses. I started using his system in 2005. My results may seem modest, but recently I learned my accomplishments actually have been amazing under the circumstances. I’ll explain more soon. If you use my link to buy from Stuart, which I recommend and would appreciate, I will receive a small commission at no extra cost to you.

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Gun-free zones are magnets for massacres

by CynthiaYockey on December 15, 2012

In his USA Today column yesterday, dear Instapundit’s response to the massacre of 20 children and six women at Sandy Hook Elementary School in Newtown, Connecticut, was headlined, “Gun-free zones provide false sense of security.”

Actually, gun-free zones provide an absolute sense of security for would-be mass murderers. That’s what turns them into kill zones. That’s why gun-free zones are magnets for massacres.

Fortunately, framing the problem this way provides the solution:

  1. Don’t ban guns, ban gun-free zones. For starters, Congress should repeal the federal Gun-Free Zones Act of 1990.
  2. Conservatives should be active at the state level to repeal “may issue” concealed carry permit laws and pass “must issue” or “unrestricted” laws in their place. Wikipedia has a convenient chart of the types of concealed carry laws each state has.
  3. People who work or congregate in places historically targeted by mass murderers should be encouraged to obtain pistols, firearms training and concealed carry permits.
  4. The ban on members of our military services being allowed to carry their sidearms on base should be repealed. The Fort Hood mass murder would have had far fewer victims if our military bases, of all places, had not been turned into gun-free zones.
  5. Women frequently are targets of mass murderers, so women’s advocacy groups should get busy promoting self-defense courses with firearms training and lobbying for “must issue” or “unrestricted” concealed carry permits if they live in more restrictive states.

Most mass murderers include suicide in their attack plan. This fact is extremely useful in preventing mass murders and reducing the death toll of those that occur. Why? Because we need to accelerate the killer’s scenario for the circumstances in which he has planned to kill himself. Isn’t that always when the armed responders have arrived and he’s cornered? That’s why we need plenty of civilians in schools, universities, churches, theaters and shopping malls who have concealed carry permits, weapons and the skill to use them. The sooner there’s return fire, the sooner the suicide is triggered and the killing stops. In addition, I predict that there will be a tipping point when there are enough people with guns and concealed carry permits that would-be mass murderers won’t like their odds and will give up on their plans.


Dear Stacy McCain and Ace want to crack down on the mentally ill. I agree that it should be easier to force people who are a danger to themselves or others into care, including psych holds. But their proposals to further humiliate and enrage men whose mental illness and inadequacies may drive them to kill are disastrous. This will only push more men to kill as a means to make the world feel the hurt and impotence that overwhelm them. The carrot makes more sense than the stick: we need to find out if there’s anything we can do to give loners and nutjobs something useful to do even if it winds up being a form of semi-incarceration doing community service.

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Today I’m participating in a panel having a live discussion on BBC World Have Your Say from 10 am to 11 am EST on the importance of women’s votes in securing victory for Barack Obama for a second term and what this will mean for the GOP going forward.

I’m going to announce that over the next year on this blog I’ll leading a project to demonstrate the conservative principle that prosperity originates with an individual with an idea and grows best in a free market political system that does not burden the growth of prosperity with high taxes and over-regulation. I’ll be sharing what I’m doing to go from being penniless at the age of 59 and coping with some serious health challenges to health and financial security. I’m inviting others to start their own journey to health and prosperity with me and share our experiences, which I plan to collect in a book and course on how to do this.

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